Oh Tamoxifen, how I just can't say good bye to thee

I had been experiencing pain while on the Tamoxifen like I had mentioned in previous posts.

I had gone for ultrasounds and such to determine if the drug had been causing uterine fibroids or if there has been any other nasty things starting up.

Nothing. All clear!!

My OBGYN figures that the pain I am getting is part and parcel to my ovulating.

He feels that the only explanation is, that the Tamoxifen is for me, just like the fertility drug Clomid.

Tamoxifen started off as a fertility drug so it makes sense.

On the dose I am on now, I only seem to get the pains a few days before ovulation.

Yes, I keep track of everything.
I think I am the queen of peeing on sticks or something.

Anyways, I guess we can say overactive ovaries.

So, having had those tests and such, I have decided that I am going to stay on the Tamoxifen.

I am surprised with myself, but I know that its for the better in the long run. Or, at least thats what I think.

I have been back on the Tamoxifen since at least March or April. I usually am better at keeping track of everything with my Ical but for some reason I have been slacking.

I was told to try half a dose. 10mg. That has actually been going very well.

My cycles are all regular. Almost to the day every month.

My period is at the exact same time, days etc. I ovulate on the same day every month (sometimes only one day different)

So, so far the 10 mg dose is going very well.

However, as I was told, all studies are done with BC patients on the 2o mg dose.

Since my cancer was only mildly hormonally dependant, not sure if the 10 would be sufficient or if I should really make sure I KO anything left and go all out with the 20.

After my next cycle this month, I am going to gradually get back into 20 mg per day. See how that works out for me.

I want to wait for my cycle to see what the 20 does (if anything) to disrupt my cycle.

I am going to start with half a pill one day (which is the 10 mg) and then the second day take one half in the morning and one sometime near bed. I guess I will try that for a month or two and see how that goes and then try after that for a full dose weather its all at once or half a pill in the morning and evening.

We shall see.

I did find out that Tamoxifen does actually come in a 10 mg pill. So, if it appears that the full dose will just not do, then I guess I will go on the 10. As my oncologist said, its better than nothing and I know I can tolerate the 10 mg.

My mood has been far better on the half. I am not ready to kill my husband for the stupidest of reasons as I was before.

Things are just a lot better. Thats why I am a little nervous to get back to the full dose but at the same time, maybe my body just needs to gradually work its way up to it rather than be thrown right into a full dose.

Stay tuned.