Back Pain and a bone scan scheduled

The last month has been pretty hard.

I have had a lot of back pain, pain to the point I can hardly function.

I first chalked it up to muscle strain due to the fact that is around the time my son first started walking. I probably threw my back out bending over trying to grab his hands as I would see him about to tumble onto something that would end up being less than pleasant.

That and he weighs 24 lbs now, he is heavy to pick up, put in his car seat when he struggles etc.

So, I continued to live with it thinking thats all thats going on.

Time went on, this is the one month plus mark since Ethan has been running around and things are getting far worse.
The pain is so bad on the left side in my back where my ribs are. I hardly can sit here at the computer.

Its now at the point where its not just hard to do things, I can't do things.

I went to the Oncologist today.

First of all I have lost weight since my last visit which is not the best of signs, however, could be because I am more active and with the pain (whatever its pathology) makes me not feel like eating much.

I was examined. Good thing is, upon examination of my bones where the pain is located, the exam itself was not overwhelming with pain or discomfort. Getting up onto the table was the worst of it all.

Having said that, that is a good sign that it is not metastatic breast cancer in the bone.

I have one plus for me.

I was sent for blood work to check calcium levels for one thing.

I try not to read too much lately about symptoms and such for metastatic bc.

I do however remember that calcium levels are elevated when the cancer metastasizes to the bones. The bones produce an excess amount.

I am not sure what else was checked off on the requisition as I did not have a chance to look at it any further.

A bone scan is set up for the 27th of this month where that will give a much clearer idea of what is going on.

I pray that it is clear. I am always scared, especially this being within the two years since diagnosis.

My logic tells me I have nothing to worry about. Starting at the beginning, no lymph nodes out of 21, no spreading of any description and my breast was removed immediately so if there were any teeny tiny buggers lingering, they would not have the chance to spread.

All clear margins.
I had the chemo. I am on tamoxifen. Mind you, I am still battling the full dose and am not on it yet. Thats another post for another time.

However, that little bit of doubt lingers and I think it always will.

So, blood work should be back by Monday. If I get any calls, I will know its not good news.

Bone scan set for the 27th. Wish me luck.

For now, I am literally crawling around my stye of a house. I am surprised I can see the floor.
I think its because someone tripped on something and that cleared a bit of space.

All I want to do is sleep. I have had so much sleep over the past few days.

My family are amazing. They really come through for me despite their own health issues and situations.

I have more help tomorrow. My mom is coming to help me with Ethan.

More family are coming to stay a few days with me this week too. Every little bit helps.

I can not believe I am saying that I can't wait for the day I can do the diaper changes again!!

I just want to be better and be able to pick my son up, take him out and do things.

My husband has been the Mr. Mom around here. He is amazing too.

I will update again as soon as I know what is happening.

Now, to go and somehow get myself into a nice hot bath and try to forget all the bad and focus on all the good.

Oh, I am too lazy to proof read this tonight so if it does not make sense, although I am sure nothing new (lol) that is my excuse for this one!!