New Years and Mexico

It has been a busy couple of months.

I had seen Dr. Gelmon last month right before the holidays.
Things are looking pretty good for me. The Iniparib is on its way. When it will be here, I am not sure but it for sure has been approved for me so hopefully soon I should have it.

I felt so much better after that appointment. Just a few simple words from her really gave me hope. It was light a huge weight was lifted off of me. My brain shifted from "I'm dying" to "there is just so much hope for me". Sometimes few words can be pretty powerful.
She had ordered a CT scan for me so that she could compare the tumours now to how things were just before I had started the chemo.
I actually was surprised that she would want one so soon. Or at least that is how I felt. I felt that I needed a few more rounds in before I would want a comparison. However, she is the Dr. so she ordered it.
I had my scan on Dec. 30th. I was nervous. Not of the scan, just as to what it would show.
All of my blood work had been coming back normal. All LFT's were good. Even the LD had come down to 176!!!
I knew that the CT would show some improvement but I was not sure what. That and I was afraid that it would show some newb's just starting up or spreading starting.
Anyways, while away on holiday I received a reply email from her.
The first part of the email said: "Your CT looks great. Still shows disease but it has decreased significantly" This is good news. "

Those also were powerful words. I wanted to wait until we came home before I got the results. That way I could think the whole time that things were good and live in bliss. Even if it was going to show bad results, I chose to be ignorant....since its blissful.
But. great to hear that.

Now I just wait to hear what I should do with the next round of chemo. I believe it is my last of the Gemcitobean and the Cysplatin. (All spelled wrong but I am too lazy to look it up) I am scheduled for chemo in Abbotsford when I was supposed to have switched over to Vancouver now. I don't want to screw up the Iniparib since I believe it is supposed to be taken with either Cysplatin or Carboplatin. I hope to find out tomorrow what is happening.

Other than all of that, I feel great.

We had a great New Years with family. We stayed at the Four Seasons Waterfront in Vancouver.
We all went to the dinner there. It was amazing.
Ethan and I actually stayed awake until after new years. As soon as the new year rang in, I cried like an idiot and could not stop.
I can be a very emotional person. I cried so much because I MADE IT to 2011!!! Something that did not look too promising to me last year. I was just so happy.

We left for Mexico on Jan. 3rd. We went back to the place where we were for our honeymoon 3 years ago.
We stayed at the Gran Bahia in the Mayan Rivera. I love that place!!
We relaxed, swam in the pool, walked all over, ate and ate and ate. It was so nice to be there and in the sun.
I did not feel like a cancer patient. I still thought about it a lot but it did not bother me. I was too busy enjoying myself.

For my birthday we swam with the dolphins. Something I have always wanted to do.
It was a blast. I am afraid of fish but that did not stop me.

Now that we are home and unpacked, things are just a little too quiet. I love action and being around a lot of people.
I feel off for a few days or so when I am home. I love being with my son but do miss people all around me to socialize with.

Hopefully in the next few days I will know what is happening with the Iniparib