So far I am doing alright. I have had minimal pain where the incision is. (and it is healing really well, I have had hardly any bruising,swelling and no infections)
My biggest complaint is still my right arm. It is still very hard to lift it very high and move it around somewhat. The last day or so it has felt like someone is grabbing my upper arm really tight and not letting go. It feels inflamed but when I actually touch it and look at it, its hardly swollen at all, it looks about the same as my left arm.
I am not sure if this is lymphedema that is starting or if this is normal.
I still have my physio exercises to do. I work at those every day.
None the less, this is all due to the removal of the lymph nodes. Otherwise this whole mastectomy has been more or less pain free.
I have not cried once over this whole thing since before the surgery. I cried a lot before because I was terrified that the cancer had spread and I did not want this cancer invading my body.
Once I had the surgery, I was finished with the crying. I do get upset from time to time that I had to loose my breast over this whole ordeal, but then I really stop to think about things and realize that its a small price to pay to get rid of the cancer.
I am going to have the other breast removed. I am not sure when that will happen but after a lot of thinking, I have decided that is the smartest thing to do.
If the cancer were to come back in the left breast, it would be the same thing all over again. The stress of wondering if I found it in time and if its spread, the fact that I will have to have that breast removed along with the lymph nodes once again. The waiting for the operative and pathology report was just too much to take in. Too stressful.
At least if I go in on my own for this surgery, its under my terms and I know that there is nothing to have to sit and worry about after. That and it will be a lot easier for the reconstructive surgeon rather than having to match one implant up with my natural breast, she can pretty much design a new set!
I am getting a little drained with all the Dr.'s appointments. I have an appointment with the genetics dep. at the Cancer clinic, I want to get tested for the gene.
The next day I meet with the Oncologist finally.
My surgeon and family Dr. have both decided along with the Oncologist that I am going to be induced and have my baby at 36 weeks. This will be within the next 3 to 4 weeks.
Very soon after I start chemotherapy. I am hoping I have at least a week after the baby to adjust to things before I have to start.
For the most part, I am just happy to be alive and the situation is..... what it is. Nothing I can do to change the past, I can only do what I can to try my best to prevent the cancer from coming back.
I will post more soon
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